it certainly has been a while. i just want to write a few things out... was'nt quite sure where- nobody wants to really read about this on devart- so it kinda gets stuck here. 

this summer is going well i guess. pool typical- it's alright. i find myself judging people way to much. like i have somethign to prove to them. i don't really. they think less of me, i should just say screw them right? well when i see them for a few hours a frw times a week- it makes it hard to let it go. meh

i went to a coupla parties- rales and had a blast. why did i not do this before???? kinda sucks cuz now there's such little time left and it's not like we're going to be living a few houses down anymore. i haven't been taking to people- friends other than that. i want to. but then i feel like i'm intruding. some people have 'summer friends' and i don't want to interfere or be the oddman out. just wierd. and besides that a few of my good friends- i can't quite be myself around. they're nice- just a little too goody goody for me. now i'm not saying let's go get drunk and bash people's mailboxes. but lets have a drink or two. ya mean? i saw a few picks from those parties. and my god, i have gained weight. it sucks. but i know i have been. i blame it on the lyfestyle change of my parents. my mom doesn't cook as much as she used to. so now we eat out a lot more. and there's no school so i just sit at home and munch. 

and speaking thereof. my parents are weirding me out. they used to hate each other- never talk to each other. we all lived in the same house but no one know what was going on because no one ever talked to one another. i kinda miss that. my parents recently wen taway on a trip and now they're in love again. but it's really pathetic. they're so far up each other's asses that they can't think for themselves and it's SOOO awkward. i feel bad for my little sis- her room is the hallway adjacent to their room. and well my paren